hearts set on pilgrimage
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
 
Let go, let God


Yeah, it's a trite expression.


trite (adj.)
1. Lacking power to evoke interest through overuse or repetition; hackneyed.
2. Archaic. Frayed or worn out by use.
[Latin tritus, from past participle of terere, to wear out. See ter-1 in Indo-European Roots.]


Or maybe its a "classic" expression for you.


clas·sic   (adj.)
1.
a. Belonging to the highest rank or class.
b. Serving as the established model or standard: a classic example of colonial architecture.
c. Having lasting significance or worth; enduring. ...


In any case, today I have new appreciation for it. Lately, I've been a little lost. And though my efforts seem to be fruitless, I have cried out to God and He is hearing my prayers. My mood is up, and the horizons are opening before me.


And the key has been for me to "let go", to surrender my insistence on a certain way for things to happen. I'm in a new business facilitating the adoption of Russian orphans. The basic organization of the enterprise continues to change: for profit, not for profit, big board of directors, minimal board of directors, salaries, piecework compensation, I'm in, I'm out, we need more orphans, we need more families, we need more staff, we need more volunteers, we're local, we're nationwide.... I tolerate ambiguity pretty well, but after a while it gets frustrating. Now the circumstances haven't changed much, still chaotic, but my mood is much better. I'm not getting all stressed about it, I'm unwrapping the gift to see what God has for me.


My insistence upon my way is not what makes me who I am. As Trinity said, "It means that the Matrix cannot tell you who you are." As I surrender my way, I become more free to express those things which are closer to the core of who I am: what do I care about, what is a good life, what is right and wrong, what are virtues, what are vices, what do I believe and why do I believe it, what is my contribution to others. As I act consistently with these core commitments, no matter the situation, I am free.


"It is for freedom He set us free."


"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes. -Matthew 6:34 (The Message)


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